Utopias do not need to exist to be real because they are fantasies informed by the critiques of the present. They are meant to live in either the future or in the past through the means of hope and nostalgia; a longing for something yet to happen or loss of what was. This positions the present into purgatory, caught between the two worlds by unwillingness to commit to the here and now. Any attempt to regain a loss of utopia only illustrates how fabricated realities will never be anything more than reenactments. My work explores the uneasy tension between beauty and deception. In a religious sense, the desire to believe through disillusionment. I challenge viewers to consider whether beauty can exist without the promise of utopia or divinity, inviting them into a space where disillusionment itself becomes an introspective experience.