Caucic: afraid that the rest of your life is already laid out in front of you, that you’re being swept inexorably along a series of predictable milestones which makes you wish you could pull off to the side of the road for a little while, to stretch your legs and spread out the map so you can double-check that you’re headed the right way. -John Koenig (Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows). After doubting if each step in life you take is actually of your own free will, you desperately want to just hang up your shoes and stop yourself from walking a predetermined path.